12:20pm Thursday, October 19, 2006
Well, today is picture day, so I feel that it’s only fitting to give my reflections towards my experience here thus far (get it, picture, reflection, hahahaha…maybe not). Anyway, I’m at Higashi today, after the week of 4, 5, or 6 classes a day at my country school, Adachi-Higashi in Nihonmatsu it’s back to the regular life of Higashi. I have no classes in Higashi this week…AGAIN. I’ve figured out that this is the 4th week in my some 10 weeks of teaching that I have not had any classes in Higashi. Now at my other two schools that I go to regularly I still have classes which is nice. But man, why am I even at Higashi?
K, I’m getting off track. My weekend was pretty much a toga party which there are pictures of up on my pic site. It was a good time, I brought a 3 litre beer…yes you read that right, 3 LITRES…go check the pics. It was awesome had a screw top and a handle.
Anyway, on Monday, with no classes, I pretty much just puttered around and tried to look busy surfed the internet etc. My supervisor then told me I have to be quiet at home…apparently my landlord called the school on top of me getting a note on my door. As well, as my luck would have it my supervisor informed me that I had a new landlord at my building, it is no longer the person from 201 but instead the person from 301, the apartment directly below me and the same people that probably wrote me the lovely letter. This has led me to believe that 301 asked 201 to get me evicted or something and they decided they couldn’t do that so they resigned and 301 took over. Now I know that I’m naturally a paranoid person, but it’s very strange that 201 isn’t moving out and just decided mid-month to not be the building manager/landlord anymore.
It’s strange to feel racism after being in the majority for so long. I’m an educated white male and here that’s extremely problematic apparently. Now generally people are impressed that I’m a teacher here, unlike back home, but the fact that I’m white and teaching Japanese children may put them off a little bit. Ever since the heart-felt letter I received from my neighbour below I have been utterly quiet and have listened to the building. I have realized that without insulation in Japanese buildings not only are they cold but the walls and floors are literally like paper. Now I have very noisy neighbours, loud music, loud screaming children, etc etc. The fact that I have been loud 2 nights in the just over 2 months that I have been here does not warrant a note and a call to my school. The only thing I can think of is intense racism. I remember reading that it is difficult to find a place for foreigners to live as most Japanese do not want to live near them. I feel that I am in this position in my own home and that is not the coolest. I mean, I’m just as loud or as quiet as the next Japanese person (I know, hard to believe but I’ve really been trying since I got here and really, I live alone…not many people to talk to or anything) yet I’m still pounced on for the smallest thing…it just really pisses me off.
Now I’m starting to feel that this racism or at least fear/hatred of foreigners spills over into my workplace. One, I don’t get classes in Higashi, I don’t know why. There are English classes going on every period yet I’m told to sit at my desk. Then when I surf the net they begin to despise me even more, even though I have nothing to do. I’ve gone to English teachers and said, I have no classes today would you like me to go to class with you, this is the English teachers that I have never had a class with…apparently I only teach with some teachers and others I don’t teach with at all. This I don’t understand either. So, because of this lack of me being out in the school and being cooped up in the office all the time the kids go nuts when they see me…STILL after 2 months. A great job of internationalization I’m doing here eh? 16, 17 and 18 year old kids can’t lay eyes on a foreigner without screaming or giggling or whatever. It’s as if I am literally a freak and the office is my cage and every once in a while a JTE puts a leash on me and takes me out for a walk down the hall and into a class room and then is like….dance monkey dance!!! All the kids laugh and shout, etc etc and then they’re like ok, good monkey and bring me back to the office. I feel like the next class the JTE sits in there and talks with the kids about how weird and strange the “foreigner” is…”did you see him….he was sooooo white and he sat down in an empty desk!!! Who would do that?? Crazy foreigner!”
Ok, I get it, maybe some teachers are afraid of having to speak English or whatever…but….I mean seriously…get over that shit! I’m going to approach my super on Monday and ask if I’m doing a good job, she will say yes regardless of what actual answer is and then I’m going to ask for more classes, or ask why I don’t have classes. Even next week I only have 4 classes in the 3 days I’m here….like seriously?? OOOOOO guess what I just got the lesson plan for Monday….awesome….I have to do nothing for it, there was nothing discussed. Ha jeez. K, I just realized I sound like a whiney school girl but seriously everyday I think “all dressed up and nowhere to go.” Like what the hell. And I know that this is completely justified because I’ve talked to my predecessor’s predecessor and he’s still here and he felt exactly the same thing. He actually has his blog archived back to when he first got here. He set it up just like me to keep in touch with people back home and then it ended up being like a guide for JETs all around
Japan. I have yet to check it out, but his email back to me about Higashi pretty much confirmed all the stuff I’ve been saying. As well, the fact that NO ONE and I mean NO ONE talks to me unless it’s to slap the leash on or talk about when we’re slapping the leash on kinda sux. Now I know…most of them speak Japanese, I speak English…that’s a problem. But fuck….I know how to say Good Morning in Japanese and How are you? Whatever, I started studying Japanese full out at my desk today, which actually got some teachers talking to me. Which was kinda nice. Ryan (my pred’s pred) told me to just study it like crazy at school and you’ll get a ton of teachers talking to you. I always thought like…hey….i really shouldn’t be studying myself at school I should be reading teaching books, etc etc. or at least looking busy on the net. Apparently I’m wrong. So I will continue to study Japanese.
One other thing…the internet is all sketchy at work cuz they got rid of the wireless router I was connecting too and haven’t given me the new Ip or anything for the other ones….so I have all the old info inputted so sometimes it lets me on the net and a lot of the time it cuts me off. I’ll try and get that fixed soon, but I think it’s a good idea not to have the net as then I’ll just study Japanese. Oh, as well, I’m pretty much going to be home every weekend from now until when Mo gets here in an attempt to save a crapload of money. So look for me on the weekends, which I will spend studying Japanese, getting drunk and on the net with people while drunk. LOL. Actually everyone is going camping this weekend except me…so I’ll probably just be around and studying…so mom, if u’r looking to talk…any time this weekend. K, bye for now.
B